You know when you are lucky enough to have something that makes you so happy that you can't bear to let it go? Something that can fill you with so many emotions or throw the biggest smile on to your face. For me - that something is my friends.
Some I have known for years, some just one and some are even newer than that. But these people inspire me to keep going. They make me feel loved and I can never really express into words just how much they really do mean to me.
On the 25th of January 2020, I threw a leaving party. The guest list was made up of people who spark joy in my life and people who I will be thinking of as soon as I start to feel a little homesick when I am oh so many hours away from home.
The night was so random - so much happened and there were so many people to chat too. People I hadn't seen in months - People I see every day. It was overwhelming and I really struggled to handle the emotion of being surrounded by so many people that are so caring and fun.
But I think that even though my mind was in a million different places. Even though I contemplated why I was even moving at all. I think the emotion was a good thing. To be able to realize that there ARE so many people that do care about me. I may not see them that often - but it showed me that the people who love you will be there for you when you really want and need them too.
I think it's a good thing that there was so much emotion. Because it means I have something just that great that makes leaving - even if it is just for a year or three - so difficult.
I don't know who - if anyone reads this blog. But I just wanted to express how grateful I am for everyone who was there. Everyone who gave me a hug or reassured me they will still be here when I come back or just visit. Everyone who cared enough to show up and show me that they care - for me!!
Remember to appreciate the
presence of those around you. Things change so quickly - it's so important to find what sparks that joy in you. Find that something or those people who make you feel so special and soak it all in - whenever you can.
xx Rebecca Marie